finally some quiet time to myself.

shuffled the ipod and 'summer girls' is on the list. this used to be my favourite song years ago.

i find myself liking the sun a little more lately. days when i got up early, i would draw the curtains and allow some light in or even switch off the air-conditioning. i feel a tad bit healthier because i have been eating. no longer live in the days which i put two spoonful of rice on my plate. i snacked and even craved for pizza. did i mention prata for supper? i feel very good. my parents prolly thought i am depressed but i do feel amazing.

i had a weird dream. i dreamt that i was running around naked, in an unknown place. in the dream, people were looking at me. familar faces which i cant make out. so i googled for dream interpretations - To dream that you are naked, denotes the fear of being found out and exposed about your activities and misjudgment; you suddenly discover your nudity and are trying to cover up, signifies your vulnerability to a situation.

strangely, i have lesser worries lately. at least for the past 2 weeks. maybe its good to not have plans. my head felt so much lighter. despite not doing any shopping, i do not feel a least bit grumpy. i wake up and sleep to my body clock. had my fair share of friends. my family is safe. for now, everything seems within my comfort zone but a dark bit of me knows somehow, someday, a part of this good will be taken away. like usual.

and so kenny is flying off this sunday. how time flies. we were talking about it for a couple of months and now, its barely a week away. i dont feel a tinge of sadness. i am actually very proud of him. and at this point, its like your best friend has found his purpose in life and you sincerely wish him nothing but the best. i know he will ace it.

ps i so love reba mcentire's because of you